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"You shouldn’t be with someone just because you’re lonely. You can still be lonely even though you’re with them. And sometimes being with people just solidifies that loneliness"

Twins of Faith 2013! lets go!

Let's go ladies and gentlemen! 

No matter where you are on your Islamic journey – a non-Muslim interested to learn about Islam, or a Muslim who wants to start or just started practising, a student of knowledge – Twins of Faith will provide you with the inspiration for you to move further.

Twins of faith 2012 was a good turning point for me, so i'm looking forward to attending this event this year. and in fact i'm planning to volunteer this time, insyaAllah :) 

talking about friends

It does no justice to compare your best friends that you've known for 5 years with acquaintances that you've mingled around for just two months. You expect life to be fair, but in reality, you cant even be fair to yourself . It is just foolish to do that, isn't it?

Because as time goes by, i believe those acquaintances will be our new best friends. 

Well, who knows right,
who knows. 

i just had to

Scouting 101 

*this post is all about scouting and its adventures so if you are not interested so better don't read it because you might get bored k thanks :)

If your stuffs are less than the above, you're not doing it right! haha.
ini semua normal;
(1 box of food, 1 box of log books, 1 first aid box, 1 sleeping bag and 1 haversack)  

the bamboo stick = life. it's that important

Patrol R 

 Basically we have to build 14 gadgets (that includes our bed, table, pintu gerbang, dapur, tiang bendera etc etc its like building your place and you've to do it all by yourself during Pentarafan).We were working in a group as in the pic above because thats the Pra-pentarafan, (its like spm and Trial spm, and Pra-pentarafan is equal to Trial spm haha i hope you understand but duhhh of course this one's easier than spm.. who am i kidding)

those bamboos are blardeeee heavy i tell you. need to carry at least 30 of them 

saat yang mendebarkan. so after we built the gadget, para pentaraf will check the strength and stability, oh and also the knots. 

Group interview, we were asked about the current issues, so everybody must take part in the discussion because it does matter a lot! oh besides that, there was individual interview too. I was interviewed by two panels, and its a COMPULSORY to memorise all the basic knowledge/ history of scout; Lord Baden Powell, the long name of Agong, basic knowledge about parliament and politics.

16 km expedition during the Pra Pentarafan. Yeap we went hiking with that uniform. actually we did almost everything wearing that uniform, so dear scouts, dont bother to bring any other clothes okay, they re useless haha. Oh and dont confuse this for the 48km expedition; that expedition took 3 days, while the one in the pic took only a day

It's a test, yeapp, written test. objective and subjective questions. (easier than spm thankfully) 

ujian pertolongan cemas- semua automatically jadi miss-know-it-all. semata-mata nak markah tinggi haha. its not easy, but not that hard, just.. okayy

Backwood cooking a.k.a Masakan rimba. this one's pretty tough (as for me T.T )
The thing is, one pentaraf will examine the way we cook and taste the food. thats why i said its a bit tough, hm kalau utk kumpulan sendiri kesah apa aku, haha, because everybody's hungry so i guess we couldnt care less about the taste, well hunger is a good sauce! 

Knots and Lashings,
oh say hi to CPR 042 a.k.a aishah 50 sen :P

pioneering, this is menara tinjau, if i'm not mistaken 

oh and one more thing you should know, food is not provided in pra pentarafan & pentarafan, its not like attending a camp where you can just queue in order to get your breakfast/lunch/dinner happily. that means, after you are tired building your gadgets in the hot sunny day, you come to a point when you feel very hungry & need some rest, andddd you realise you have to cook first in order to eat, its like the worst feeling ever. p/s: MAGGI IS NOT ALLOWED. so its a common thing if we only eat chocolates and biscuits to survive. but still, alhamdulillah for that, macam baru sedar perasaan orang kebuluran takde makanan semua mcmana :O 

and last but not least, 

LOG BOOKS!


its funny how i still have goosebumps when typing all these things, haha, those scary/exciting moments.
but well, the journey was totally worth it. btw i'm not saying everything's perfect here, like of course, i think in everything we do, there'll always be pros and cons but we must know where to draw the lines and keep reminding ourselves to do what makes Our Creator happy. Yang baik kita ikut, yang buruk kita tinggalkan :)

i think it's obvious what happened here
i miss scouting

although i've decided to stop getting involved actively in scout, it doesnt mean i'll stop exploring,
 because the world is either a daring adventure or nothing.

once a scout, always a scout

a lil something 2.0

9 more days till college and i've decided to paint something (stress reliever i guess? lol) i use DR's oil paint as the background and DR's acrylic as the tree. i've read somewhere that it's not a very good idea to mix them together but i believe as long as the paint has dried then its okay (or not..well as long as it looks pretty, i'm cool :D) 

oh as usual, need to improve more on the details, especially around the edges well its very challenging and danjerezz 

Judge judge judge

Let's face it. We judge because we need to feel better about ourselves. I do it too and it annoys me. But we seriously need to train ourselves so that we let God alone be The Ultimate Judge and make sure we don't intervine in the process.

It's a tough command but it's worth trying. InsyaAllah.

words of the day

'Ramai yang takut untuk yakin diri kerana risau dikatakan berlagak. Ramai yang takut untuk menonjol kerana risau akan riya'. Begitulah permainan syaitan, gagal membawa kita direct dgn ajakan keburukan, mereka akan mematikan kemaraan kita dengan alasan-alasan kebaikan.
-farah waheeda-

Twins Of Faith 2012

(This is gonna be a long post, but please make some time to read it!) :) 

Last weekend, (29 & 30 Dec), i went to PICC, Putrajaya to attend this programme. It's an international islamic conference. The speakers and performers came from all over the globe, and everybody gather for the love of God. Alhamdulillah, i've learned so much in these 2 days. I'm gonna combine some of the slots so that this post won't be too long

the main hall 

29/12/12- Saturday

What Is Love? & Give a Little Love- Sh Daood (Canada) & Abdul Rahman Chao (US)
Sh Daood said, when you love someone, you'll know everything about them. Then, he asked everybody to stand up, and whoever that actually know 99 names of Allah can sit. I didn't sit because i don't actually know the meaning of Asmaul Husna though I memorize the nasheed. I feel bad for myself. Do we really know Allah? It's time to know about Him, so that we can love Him better!

 "If we love someone or something, we know in and out about them, but how much do we know about our Creator?" 

-Sh Daood-

Whenever we make mistakes, know that it's not the end of the world, know that Allah wants to forgive you, know that you can change! The 'thing' that we love is what we always tend to do without being told. For example, when we are performing our salahs 5 times a day / fasting in Ramadhan, instead of saying 'Oh, i have to do that because i'm a Muslim', we should say 'I want to do that because i'm a Muslim'. We must try to find pleasure while being obedient to Allah, so we'll always look forward to know Him. If we really love Allah, show it because real love should be demonstrated and not to be kept in the pocket. And then Sh Daood came up with a hadeeth that was narrated by Abu Hurairah. 

"“When Allah loves a person, He calls Jibreel and says: ‘I love So and so, so love him.’ So Jibreel loves him, then he calls out to the people of heaven, ‘Allah loves So and so, so love him.’ So the people of heaven love him and he finds acceptance on earth. If Allah hates someone, He calls Jibreel and says: ‘I hate So and so, so hate him.’ So Jibreel hates him, then he calls out to the people of heaven: ‘Allaah hates So and so, so hate him.’ So they hate him and he is hated on earth.”

As a conclusion, when you show love, love will come back to you. When you show rahmah (mercy) to other people, Allah will show rahmah to you. It's as simple as that. Abdul Rahman Chao said when you show love to humans, you are renewing hope in humanity. He also remind people to go to the mosque more often; Mosque is not a club for perfectionist/ people who's good/ religious people only, it is big enough for sinners who want to seek Allah's forgiveness. 

When you walk to Allah, Allah will run to you - Hadeeth

30/12/12- Sunday

Where Is Your Home? & Laying Your Foundations- Sh Daood & Abdul Rahman Chao

He said every single thing that existed in Dunya is a test; the invention of facebook, twitter, smartphone or anything else, they are actually a form of test from Allah s.w.t. So it's up to us to use them for Halal or Haram. When we are tested, that is when we become better. And when you say you cannot bear Allah's test, YOU ARE LYING! Allah knows His slaves better. So whenever we feel week and want to give up with life, make dua to Allah so that He give us strength. All we have to do is just ask; speak to Allah. The worst thing we'd do is that we stop asking Him. Don't lose faith dear brothers and sisters! :)

When Allah loves you, He will test you and give you that opportunity to excel 

Later, Sh Daood asked us to stand up (he loves doing this though!) and he said, "How many times your parents change your diapers? How much money have they spent on you? How many sleepless night they had when you are ill? And how many times your parents said I love you and you told them, have a nice day, Assalamualaikum? How many times we look at our parents with happiness, and how many times we look at our parents with anger?" Wallahi, at this particular moment, majority of people in the hall were crying. Sometimes we forgot to show love to the people who love us the most. Sh Daood wouldn't let us sit unless we've sent 'i love you' text message to our parents. And i did! alhamdulillah. Must do this more often :) 

He also said that many people nowadays have so many knowledge about so many things but they're lack of the knowledge on how to correct others' mistakes, they're lack of the knowledge to have manners, that's why many people failed when doing da'wah. The ultimate aim of doing da'wah is not to win argument but to win hearts.

"So much time and effort is wasted studying a university book which 99% of it is never used afterwards anyway." 

-Abdul Rahman Chao-

And because of this statement above, we have to try our best to balance things that we learn. Learn Islam as hard as we learn those hard subjects in school/ university. Most of our time is wasted for the sake of a certificate. this is true though =/ 

1% Now, 99% to Come - Sh Omar Suleiman

"Allah's mercy is divided to 100 parts, only 1% is showed to us in this Dunya, the other 99% is reserved for the Day"

-Hadeeth-

This slot is mainly about Allah's mercy. We can't enter Jannah by our good deeds, the fact that our sins are more than the good deeds. We can enter Jannah by Allah's mercy. On the Judgement day, we are dealing with Allah's mercy and not Allah's justice. Think about it, if we are going to deal with Allah's justice...... i may not have the chance to enter Jannah :'( 

For the sins you made, He covers them up with your voluntary deeds. He patches up, makes excuses for you because He wants to forgive you. The ultimate reason Allah creates us is to be in Jannah with Him and our life is worthless, if we are not there in Jannah. MasyaAllah, have you ever seen a boss making excuse for his workers who make mistakes? Allah cares for us so much that He gives us the opportunity to make taubah. He forgives and forgets! Allah is so kind to us but we can't even do the things that He told us to :( 

3 personalities of people who won't get Allah's mercy

1. The one that despair Allah's mercy (that is Syaitaan)

2. The one who always blame others (and doesn't make change for himself)
Don't blame anybody but yourself. Don't blame Shaitaan but blame yourself

3. The one who knew their potential but procrastinate
Hurry up! You know you could do better! Stop procrastinating! 

THIS is the time. This is the youth and energy you will not get back. THIS is when you serve Allah swt. On the Judgement day, Allah will ask us, 

"Oh my slave, what did you do with your youth?"

So lets prepare ourselves, friends! 

A Day In Paradise (my favourite slot!) - Sh Tawfique Chowdhury

This slot really amazed me, the Paradise is waaaaaay beyond my imagination! let me share some amazing facts:

-In Paradise, we can ask everything we want till we have nothing else to ask for. 

-The women in paradise will pregnant for only an hour (Subhanallah, amazing right? o.o)

-We can choose what age is our child. 
- As you enter Jannah, all the Angels will give salaam and smile. (The smile will cause huge lightning)

A Friday In Jannah

Everybody in paradise will gather in one level. That means, we can meet Rasulullah s.a.w and sahabats, those famous people that we often hear and read about! MasyaAllah. After that, an angel will call us and say 'It is your time already'. Time for what?, you may ask. It's the time to meet Allah, to meet our Creator. One to one. To see His face, to talk to Him. That's the greatest thing ever!

At this moment, everybody was in 'whoaaaaa' state. 

Last slot, by Abdurraheem green

"Keep reminding yourself about the Hereafter"

We must constantly remind ourselves because it's in human nature; that we are forgetful. Therefore we should help each other in reaching Allah's Jannah. The only difference between us and sahabats is their level of ikhlas. They sacrifice everything for the sake of Allah! Where's out effort? Where's our sacrifice? And last but not least, hide our good deeds just like we hide our sins. And when you think too much about what other people are going to say, then you love this Dunya too much! It' s not just the action, its WHY you're doing it; to impress people or for the sake of Allah? So many wise words from him. and i gotta adore his spirit while he delivers the speech! 

Thanks to Allah for giving me this golden opportunity to join this programme. Lots of new things i've gained. It was indeed a life changing event! I hope all this knowledge will stay fresh and may Allah give us strength to walk the things that we've listen. 

p/s: did you know that 75% of Muslim converts leaves Islam? It's our responsibility to help the new sisters and brothers to learn more about Islam. you can donate here, or volunteer here!

It is indeed a beautiful song:

Every sinner has a future and every righteous person has a past , Allah does not judge you on how bad you have been in the past, rather he looks at on how good you strive to be now

And you've such a beautiful soul because you've finished reading this post. Hope we can meet on that precious Friday in Jannah. Let's work hard for that brothers and sisters! Assalamualaikum xx