So, what's next?

The ink has dried and the pen has been lifted,
Tried the best and now, Tawakallah.
Exam is over, so what do I do next?

"So, lepas suasana exam, apa yang kita selalu buat? Tanya diri sendiri, still ada solat hajat, tahajud, sujud lama-lama masa solat? atau kita rasa macam nak rehat, "enjoy la sekejap, exam baru habis kot". Cuba fikir balik, takkan kita nak cari Tuhan masa kita susah je?"
                                                       
It's like i've been slapped with these words

When it's approaching exam week, we increase our deeds tremendously, but soon after we're done with all of our exams, somehow or rather, we stop doing all these things and instead we say, 'chill la, esok pon boleh buat ni', but lil did we know, we have the tendency to get lazier day by day, and the moment you wanna fix it, it gets harder as you've already lost the momentum. The next time you realise you are doing all these voluntary deeds again is when its approaching the result day, and the cycle repeats.. 

I think maybe its the feeling that we don't 'need Him' in our typical daily life as bad as we need Him during our exam seasons. Or maybe because we've been given so much that we forgot that every single thing that we have now is ordained by Him, even the things that we have never asked for. 

If you read this post and didn't find anything familiar, then, alhamdulillah, hoping to be like you one day!! :)
But if you think you're in the same shoes as me, let's make a difference this time, shall we?

So, what should we do next?
Istiqamah.

We can win this, so keep on fighting, warriors.

Of nephews and nieces

5th April 2008, my first nephew was born and i officially became an aunt. It's a whole new world for me. Although it was quite exciting to have a nephew, i still can recall the hard process of adjusting myself with the new environment. After all, it's a good learning process for me, because i think that was actually the turning point in my life that made me learned many new things. Apart from the typical babysitting stuffs (like burping a newborn baby and watching 10 episodes of upin ipin just to put them to sleep), i actually wanna share life values that i find vital in sustaining a happy family. 

• love is nothing without sacrifices 
• nothing can beat the love of a mom towards her children
• at times, the children can be the only reason why the parents are still strong, fighting and working every day, to make sure everything is perfectly fine. so we need to be strong for them too! support them and most importantly, make endless du'a 
• sometimes you just have to bear with the situations in life because at the end of the day, you'll be surprise on how the incidents could benefit us. and this is what we call 'tough love'. 
• dad is the best superhero one could get
• people can reallllyyyyy change after marriage and somehow i'm impressed by this. maybe it's the wish to be the best version of himself/herself 
• and of course, the importance of finding a good spouse, because as what i observe, marriage is all about understanding and compromising with someone who is flawed, just like us. i believe a true relationship is two imperfect people refusing to give up on each other. 
• "so what's the first thing you think about after you delivered the baby?" "i could only think of my mom. i wanna thank her, for everything."

and for my nieces and nephews, thanks a lot! your presence has indirectly helped me to change my perspective towards this life and im really glad i have you guys :) 

"Awak kena ingat, kita memang akan sentiasa diuji, terutama pada titik kelemahan kita, be it our friends, family, surrounding or studies"

It got me thinking, maybe... that is the reason i am here now.