What a pleasant surprise.
I was casually checking my mailbox when I read this email.
I totally forgot that I have written a letter for my future self approximately a year ago.
It is quite scary how time passes by so quickly
like, this can't possibly be a year ago?
Only if I could turn back and tell my past self not to worry so much :)
It could have saved my sanity from overthinking
The future may seem so much scarier than it actually is.
It is only normal to feel scared, to feel like you are under prepared
but you can't feel these without doing anything
the key question is what are you doing when you feel inadequate?
You can worry but you also have to work on preparing yourself
you have to balance between feeling scared and also feeling hopeful
when your attempt to balance them doesn't work,
remember that you are not alone and you can always seek help :)
When I wrote this letter, I didn't know what to expect in my post-uni life
although technically i didn't really have any options
I constantly wonder whether this is the best for me
But you know what?
the key to most of your worries is just to confront them
take the first step; admit that you are inadequate,
lower your ego and seek help to improve yourself
your teachers could be your books, the people around you
or even your life story that's meant to teach you lessons
you just have to realise that there is only so much to learn
"when student is ready, the teacher appears".
A year can do a lot to a person
It is both exciting and scary to think about it
May He always land us at a blessed landing place insyaAllah
Apart from receiving this letter, I've also turned 24. And it's 1st Syawal today :)
I've few things on my mind to reflect on these two events but first, lets get some sleep.
Eid Mubarak!
P/s: Preparing for raya is an extreme sport. May God bless our mothers for all of their effort and unconditional love :'( i certainly can't imagine living without you.
